Bdennryro's Journals

the life of an all american teenage... vampire?

The day dragged on as I watched the sun, as soon as it set I was free. There isnâ�™t much to say I am a vampire, I donâ�™t think itâ�™s a fare life. Well after life actually if you want to get into details. My name is Harley, I am forever 18 years old, and believe me it has been along time around 250 and 3 months to be exact I am not going to bore you with the days minutes and seconds even though I know exactly how many. I hate what I am, a vampire. You cant go out in the sun, well okay you can but you have to go to a special vampire doctor, and yes they do exist, you just have to know where to look, and then you have to get a very, very, VERY painful did I mention how painful it is. And then you have to wait a week for it to work. Some of us have to get it to stay near humans while others find it to painful to take, I have to take it, my parents, well actually my sires make me get it every other month, so I can go near humans. The whole blood thing is true to, but I find it soooâ�¦ sick, it must be something brought over from my other lifeâ�¦â�¦. There are other things I brought along with me, AKA my amazing bodyâ�¦ I hadnâ�™t really thought it would have mattered reallyâ�¦ but I actually got better looking after I was turned. The sun is basically almost setting, so pretty soon I have to go to the doctor my parents want me to go see so I can actually go into the sunlight. I am your normal teenager, I do go to high school, and I am an A+ student even though I miss the most school. Its actually pretty boring after you do the same thing over and over again my family is constantly moving because of who we are, or more or less what we are so I hope you find my story entertaining.

â�œHarley, get up.â�

I shook my head â�œNo I am not getting up this early I have a headache mom.â�

â�œWell that will teach you not to stay out so late wont it? Now get up.â� She said yanking the blankets off of me.

I sat straight up and blinked. â�œmom please this one time, I promise I wont do it again I will be up so early tomorrow dad will tell me to go back to bed.â� I groaned.

She sighed. â�œHarley, I donâ�™t know what to do with you.â�

â�œ not make me have to go to school.â� I smiled.

She sighed and closed the door â�œonly today tomorrow you have to go no getting out of it.â�

I rolled over on my side and wanted to go back to sleep, I groanedâ�¦ I wasnâ�™t tiered anymore, â�œfine Iâ�™m going to go to school.â� I yelled

I threw on my clothes, which I hated manly because we had to fallow a certain dress code in school. I went threw my clothes in my closet and found something that might work. I found a pair of nice jeans and a gray dress shirt. Once I had those on I grabbed my tie and slip it over my head and tightening it as I ran down the stairs â�œ bye mom be home as soon as school lets out.â�

â�œ bye honey.â� She said

The drive to school was only 10 minutes long.

When I finally got there I rolled up my sleeves and grabbed my back pack from the back seat and ran towards the door.

The final warning bell rang as I walked through the front door. â�˜greatâ�™ I thought. I went to the main office

Man I hated the women in the office

â�œ good morning, Mr. Jacobs, sign in on the page and I will right you a tardy slip.â� One said in a shrill voice.

â�œ yes maâ�™am.â� I said signing, she handed me a tardy pass and told me if I was late one more time I would have to go to suspensionâ�¦ nothing I havenâ�™t heard before.

I opened my locker and shoved my stuff in it. I grabbed my books and walked to my 1^st period class.

Thatâ�™s when I ran into her. She was a girl I had never seen before, and she seemed really shocked and nervous.

â�œ sorry. Iâ�™m late and Iâ�™m new and I have no clue where my class is.â� She said almost to fast.

â�œ calm down.â� I flashed a smile, â�œ here let me see your classes.â� I said reaching my hand out. She gave a piece of paper.

â�œ your in luck. You have class with me Iâ�™ll show you the way. By the way my name Is Harley.â� I said hold my hand out.

She shook it, â�œ my name is Melissa, but you can call me Lissa, thank you, by the way.â� She smiled.

â�œ so where did you move from?â� I asked her

â�œ uh well I was born In new York, but then my dad got a job offer in England and now we are back here in the US.â�

â�œ ah thatâ�™s cool.â� I said.

I made a turn â�œ we are here.â�

I knocked on the door and the teacher walked over â�œ well if it isnâ�™t Mr. Jacobsâ�¦â� he said rolling his eyes

â�œ Good morning Mr. Deater.â� I said looking at the floor.

â�œ well it was nice of you to show up.â� He said then turned to Lissa, â�œ oh you must be the new girl.â�

She nodded

â�œ welcome to the school, you can take the seat next to Mr. Jacobs.â�

She smiled â�œ thank you. He was late because he was trying to help me. Thatâ�™s why Heâ�™s late.â� She said

I felt my mouth drop and I looked at Mr. Deater, he had the same look. â�œ Uh well thank you Mr. Jacobs that was very nice of you, now both of you take your seats.â�

I grabbed Lissaâ�™s hand and pulled her to the back of the class room and sat down at the back desk.

â�œ why did you do that.â� I whispered

â�œ do what?â�

â�œ get me out of troubleâ�

â�œ oh I just thought, I donâ�™t know actually.â� She shook her hair in her eyes. I could tell she was blushing.

The rest of the class she was quiet.

When the bell finally rang I was ready to leave.

I got up and grabbed my books. I was almost ready to leave when she caught up with me

â�œ thanks Harley, for showing me to class. Iâ�™ll see you around.â� She said looking at me for the first time since this morning.

â�œ yeah Iâ�™ll see you around, you think youâ�™ll be able to find your next class?â� I asked.

â�œ yeah I think I can handle it, during class I found the school map and I sketched it so I think I can find it.â� She smiled proudly.

I laughed â�œ okay as long as you think you can handle it.â� I smiled. â�œ Iâ�™ll save you a seat at lunch, I saw we had the same one when I looked at your schedule.â� I smiled

â�œ thanks, see you then.â� She smiled

high strung, high fashion # 1

( SARA) I looked down at my watch â�œoh crap I better get home.â� I looked at my portfolio and sighed. I packed it up and head for the door. â�œGood night miss. Bellâ� â�œGoodnight Leo.â� I said waving at the doorman I really didnâ�™t feel like catching a cab and since my apartment was only a couple of blocks away I didnâ�™t see any harm in me just walking home. The last couple of months had been so crazy, first me and my boyfriend Jon moved here from Chicago to Las Vegas and now to New York so I could find work and then he found out that he was going on tour with his new band panic at the disco, I had to admit that job paid way better then working for The Academy Is. Then my friends grace had moved up to New York to. My friend Sam was a writer for one of the big magazines and was moving here soon. My friend grace took amazing photos, and soon the magazine hired her. I was a model. My friend Grace was dating the best guitarist in the world Ryan Ross. We all lived in the same apartment building just on different floors, the apartment was bigger the any house Iâ�™d ever lived in. I walked on the sidewalk and stopped at my building. â�œGood evening Miss. Bell.â� Another door man said â�œGood evening Harry, its some nice weather weâ�™re having.â� â�œYes maâ�™am.â� He nodded and then I was on my way to the elevator. I pressed the 13 number and waited. The elevator doors opened and then there was the small hallway which led to the rest of the apartment. The hallway was filled with platinum records and pictures. Man did Jon like to show off. I grabbed my key and opened the door. â�œIâ�™m home.â� I yelled The apartment was broken up into parts like the 2 bed rooms and 3 bathrooms, a huge living room and a decent size kitchen there was also the room me and Jon had turned into a movie room. â�œJon is you home?" I opened the bedroom door and slid out of my shoes I saw Jon lying in the bed sound asleep, still fully dressed in jeans and tee-shirt. I smiled at how he was sleeping. Jon and I been dating for a year and I still couldnâ�™t get enough of him, he was sweet, funny, outgoing, he could cook, clean and do laundry what else could I ask for. Thatâ�™s when I felt something rubbing against my leg. â�œhey Dylan." I said scratching the catsâ�™ ears. When I and Jon moved in together he had brought along his cat. I tiptoed to the side of the bed to my dresser and pulled out a pair of sweat pants and a sweatshirt. Believe me after wearing high fashion all day it feels really good to dress down. I turned around to look at Jon one last time before I left the room. I jumped when I didnâ�™t see him in bed and then I felt the pair of arms go around my waist. â�œYou scared me." I breathed â�œIâ�™m sorry." â�œI hate you." I said in mock anger Then his lips were over mine and then I felt my knees go to rubber, it happened almost every time I kissed Jon. â�œI forgive you." I said as his kisses trailed down my neck. â�œI hoped so." he laughed. â�œWhatâ�™s for dinner?" I asked â�œHamm.... I have no clue but I do know whatâ�™s for dessert." he said looking me up and down. I slapped him playfully. â�œWhat I canâ�™t help that my girlfriend is really hot." he laughed. I kissed him again â�œwell your hot girlfriend is really hungry." He laughed, â�œI can tell, how your photo shoot was today?" â�œErr- it was fine." I lied â�œWhat went wrong?" Jon had way of reading me like an open book â�œWell its just they couldnâ�™t get a good picture today and..." â�œAnd?" â�œI was just really irritated they got the size of the clothes all wrong and the shoes were to small." â�œNo wonder why they didnâ�™t get the picture, you werenâ�™t comfortable." I nodded and looked at Jon â�œI love you." â�œI love you to Sara." Just then my sidekick went off, "grace." â�œWho is it?" Jon asked â�œItâ�™s grace, hold on." â�œI will go get dinner started." I nodded and answered the call. I smiled, who could ask for a better boyfriend. I kissed him before he left the room. I finished my goodbyes to grace and hung up the phone. I walked to the kitchen and saw Jon. â�œHmmmâ�¦ maybe Iâ�™ll take up your offer on dessert.â� I smiled. He spun around, â�œoh well you know I have a sweet tooth.â� I came over and wrapped my arms around his waist and gave him a squeeze. â�œSo what did grace want?â� he asked. Jon and grace had become friends with Jon as soon as she had met him on the Panic tour, they had become friends. â�œOh nothing, she just wanted to know when I was free, so we could hang out.â� I smiled. â�œOh.â� â�œYeah so what are we having for dinner?â� He blushed â�œremind me we have to go to the grocery store.â� He turned around and looked down at me. I stretched on my tiptoes and gave him a quick kiss. When I went to pull away he held me still. And kept kissing me. â�œI love you.â� He whispered in my ear. â�œI love you to.â� I said back. He grabbed my wrist and pulled me towards the bedroom. â�œWhere are we going?â� â�œWhere do you think?â� he teased I just smiled.

we are the dream and you are the dreamer... 11

â�œRyan we are going to be late.â� I yelled.

â�œHold on i'm coming.â�

This wasnâ�™t the first time we had been to the doctor but today we would learn if the baby was a boy or a girl.

Ryan came down the stairs. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me. When ever he did that I totally forgot everything.

â�œLetâ�™s go.â� He smiled.

We walked to the car and I got into the passenger side.

I felt a kick and I jumped.

â�œWhat?â� Ryan asked.

â�œNothing the baby just kicked.â�

Ryan just laughed.

â�œRyanâ�¦â� I started â�œdo you think we rushed into this?â� it had been on my mind for awhile.

â�œI think everything happened a bit fast but I wouldnâ�™t change anything.â�

I smiled â�œRyan I love you.â�
he held his hand out and I put my hand on top of his and wrapped our fingers together.

I sighed. â�œRyan what are we going to name the baby?â�

â�œIt depends if itâ�™s a boy or a girl.â�

â�œWhat if itâ�™s a boy?â�

â�œI donâ�™t know I like the name Riley but I also the name Gordon.â�

â�œI like the name Riley. And if itâ�™s a girl.â�

â�œIf itâ�™s a girl I like the name grace and rose.â�

â�œI like the name grace.â�

â�œSo if itâ�™s a boy we are going to name him Riley and if itâ�™s a girl we are going to name her grace.â� Ryan said

â�œYeah I think thatâ�™s about right.â� I laughed.

Ryan smiled, â�œso I here RI and Brendon are getting serious.â�

â�œYeah so I here to.â�

â�œWeâ�™re here.â�

The normal butterflies were in my stomach. I singed in and waited in the waiting room.

Ryan looked over â�œcalm down honey, everything is going to be okay.â�

â�œI know that, Iâ�™m just nervous thatâ�™s all.â�

He nodded and put his arm around my shoulders. I laid my head on his shoulders.

â�œMs. Cole you can come back nowâ� a nurse called from the door

srry its short but there will be more soon

my baby...3

â�œcome on in sorry about all the commotion weâ�™re just having a baby shower.â�
â�œfor whoâ� Ann said in a calm voice.

â�œmeâ� I said â�œme and Ryan are having a baby boy.â�

â�œWell good for you is Brendon around.â�

I looked â�œI think, I will find him for you.â�

â�œBrendon, Ann is here to see you.â�

Brendon shot up â�œwhat?â� I looked at him she was at the door when Ryan walked into the room I saw the look of relief on his face. He came over and put his arms around me is a loving hug.

â�œI was so worried about you.â�

â�œ I am fine you need to be with your friend right now.â�
He looked up at me, â�œyour right I will be right back.â� He walked right behind Brendon. I fallowed then. Ann was sitting there. Brendon looked at her Ann

â�œwhy Are you here? I mean itâ�™s not a bad thing but I mean you could have called.â�

â�œYou can go in our room I will watch the baby â�I said.

â�œThank you Sara.â� Ann said Brendon and Ann walked into the room and closed the door I looked into the small car seat and there was a small little girl. She was wide awake and she looked up at me an over whelming since came over me that was Brandonâ�™s daughter. Brendon walked out of the room fallowed by Ann I looked at Ryan he looked down at the baby. Brendon turned back â�œSara, me and Ann are going can you stay with the baby?â� â�œyeah it will be a good learning experience for me although it may help me if I knew her name.â�

Ann smile at me, â�œI am so sorry her name is Emily.â� Then they walked out the door. I took Emily out of the car seat and rocked her back and forth and to think that I would be having a small baby like her in less then three months. Brendon and Ann came in arm and arm I smile â�œI am going to take Emily for a walk.â�

Brendon smiled the smile that meant thank you so much. Ryan looked at me â�œI am going with you.â� He took my hand Ann looked â�œwell her stroller is in the trunk you can get to it.â�

Ryan pulled the stroller out of the car. Emily smiled when I and Ryan started walking her she was so sweet.

< 5 months later>

â�œBrendonâ� I yelled ever since him and Ann had gotten engaged he was very hard to find he was always spending time with Ann or Emily. I sat down feeling suddenly tired, Ryan walked into the room â�œhey Hun are you okay?â� he came over and sat down next to me. â�œYeah I am aâ�¦. fineâ�

Brendon walked out Ann on his arm we have some news Ann jumped up â�œI am pregnant.â�

â�œOh my godâ� I said. I hugged Ann. â�œReally.â� I laughed.

Brendon had a smile on his face â�œyeah penguin (the name I earned since last month because I waddle because of the baby) your son will have a play mate now.â�

â�œOne big happy family.â�

I felt tired â�œI am heading to bed everyone I am so tired and I am going out tomorrow.â� â�œWhy?â� Ryan said with a face that either was confused or concerned or maybe both.

â�œI am meeting my mom she wants to be here for the baby.â�

â�œOh yeah.â� Ryan said.

â�œSo yeah I am heading to bed.â�

we are the dream and you are the dreamer... 10

We went back to the living room, Brendon and RI were sitting on the couch and Jon and his girl friend Ella were on a chair.

â�œ Spence is coming over soon.â� Brendon said.

â�œ great then everyone can hear the amazing news me and Kate have.â� Ryan said.

I smiled, so what if I never meant for this to happen.

Jon stood up and came over and gave me a hug â�œ how are you havenâ�™t seen you for a week.â�

â�œ ha-ha Jon so funny how was your trip back to the windy city?â�

â�œ Chicago was fun I saw will and my â�˜rents.â� He smiled

â�œ ah thatâ�™s fun , hey Ella.â� I smiled as she joined me and Jon.

â�œ hey Kate.â� She smiled.

I felt a pair of arms wrap around me

â�œ hey Ryan.â� I said without even having to turn around.

â�œ hey.â� He said â�œ Spence is hereâ�

I turned around and smiled. Ryan let go of my waist and then I was being crushed in a bear hug.

â�œ hey Spencer be careful.â� I said putting a hand on my belly.

â�œsorry.â� He laughed. â�œ I missed you.â�

Ryan smiled to and wrapped his arm around my shoulder.

â�œ you guy we have something to tell you.â� Ryan said.

The room went quiet.

â�œ Kate and I are having a baby.â� He stated

Spencer smiled at me â�œ opps I hope I didnâ�™t squish the baby.â�

I laughed â�œ I think he or she will be okay.â�

Jon came over and gave me a hug â�œ thatâ�™s great.â�

I smiled, â�œ thanks Jon.â�

Ryan grabbed my hand and led me back to the room. Then he got on one knee â�œ Kate will you marry me ?â�

the tears welled up in my eyes

â�œ yes.â�

He smiled and pulled a black box out of his back pocket, and flipped it open inside there was a single diamond ring on a gold band.

He took my hand and slid the ring on my finger.

When he stood back up I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him.

We walked back into the living room.

â�œ more good news.â� Ryan said â�œ she said yes.â�

â�œ oh so all of you knew and no one said anything.â� I laughed

Ryan came over and put his on top of my hips and I put my hands on top of his.

my baby... chapter 2

< Doctors appt.>

â�œRyanâ� I said looking at him, â�œwhen we are going to tell Spencer and Jon.â�

â�œafter the doctorâ�™s k. I promise.â�

I looked over then down I was sure I had at least gained 10 to 20 pounds I hugged Jon and Spencer good bye and got into the car with brendon and ryan we where on our way to the doctors to check up on the baby. We stopped out side the house. My friend Jessica stepped out with a basket in her arms no doubt that my friend had already gotten me a baby gift then she got in put her hand against my stomach we where always close and other then me Ryan and Brendon the only other person that knew about the baby because she was the person me and Ryan had chosen as the godmother of our child. Ryan and Brendon laughed together everyone in the car knew something except me. Jess looked over

â�œSara I am so happy for you and Ryanâ� she leaned forward and gave Ryan a kiss on the cheek then over to Brendon.

Jess and Brendon had gone out awhile ago but now they were only friends. I must have dosed off because the next thing I remember was a stop and a warm hand on my shoulder â�œhey Hun weâ�™re hereâ� I opened my eyes Ryan look at me come on we donâ�™t want to be late for the babies appointment.

I got I pushed back the sleep and walked near Ryan, who put his arm around me. When we got in us where the 3^rd people to get called back so me and Jess had time to talk. She had re met her long time boyfriend and was planning on getting married the next fall. I looked at her

â�œthatâ�™s great.â� I said this sure wasnâ�™t my first trip here. I felt a small kick I jumped. â�œWhatâ�™s the matter!â� Brendon and Ryan said in unison.

â�œNothing.â� I said although Ryan had already made his way over. I put his had over my stomach there was a kick again only this time it wasnâ�™t me who jumped it was Ryan. I laughed

â�œthat is our kid Sara.â� the nurse walked in and heard the accounts of the kicking she felt them then told us the doctor would be in shortly not even five minutes later in walked the doctor same old same old. The cold gel the altusound the doctor smiled at us

â�œa healthy baby would you like to know the gender of the baby?â�

I looked at Ryan â�œyes.â�

The doctor took a dramatic pause â�œitâ�™s a boyâ� she said. We got back into the car and drove back home.

When we got home Brendon went in first then jess me and Ryan last because we were talking about the baby boy we where going to be having. We walked in the house where we were greeted in surprise Jon and Spencer really hadnâ�™t gone out well no they had but to get stuff to put together a baby shower I started crying.

â�œSaraâ� Ryan said

â�œno I am happy.â� I walked into the room where I and Ryan slept. There was a crib and a changing table and a dresser I walked over to the crib and lifted the tag it read. â�œTo Sara a wonderful friend and a soon to be great mom â�œlove Spencer then without enough time for me to even thank Spencer the loud crash. Jess ran over to Jon who was carrying a large package then all these people I knew walked in my friends Courtney who had married Vince and where also expecting her first child she had small gifts to then came Sam and Pete who had been dating on and off for the last year or so. Then Shelby with her 2 and a half year daughter with her. Stacy came with her twins who she had, had with Cole . Then came grace who was going out with john. Some more of Ryanâ�™s friends showed up. Then we begin opening gifts. Sam had gotten me a blue blanket covered with stars. Stacy had gotten me a pooh set. I started to cry again

Ryan nuzzled me â�œits okay Hun weâ�™ll be fineâ�

I couldnâ�™t stop crying I got up and walked up to the bed room. I fell on the bed.

Brendon, jess, and Ryan walked in fallowed by Sam. I asked if they could all leave and that I would be out in awhile even though I knew that was a lie. They all left except Sam I let her stay I felt close to her we had been friends since the sixth grade. We talked and I begin felling better if only I wasnâ�™t the size of a house my ankles didnâ�™t hurt. Then the door bell rang I found that strange so I went to go answer it and I opened the door their was a woman with long brunette haired woman â�œhello Ann how are youâ�

there was a taste of hate in my voice I heard it then I opened the door only because I had noticed that she was holding a baby car seat

we are the dream and you are the dreamer... 9

I went back to my own room, mainly because there was a pit in my stomach. I felt really sick.

Iâ�™m only hungry I told my self and then I went to Brendonâ�™s room to check on RI.

I knocked on the door

â�œHello.â�

â�œHey can I come in?â�

â�œYeah.â�

I opened the door and walked in.

â�œHey, how was your night?â� I asked

â�œAmazing, I love Brendon heâ�™s the best thing that ever happened to Me.â� she sighed.

â�œYeah I feel the same way about Ryan.â�

â�œIâ�™m hungry.â� RI said.

â�œMe to.â�

We walked into the kitchen.

All I hope was that I would feel better.

< A week later.>

I still wasnâ�™t feeling better I was getting sick almost every morning.

I went to go find RI so I could talk to her.

I found her in Brendon room.

â�œRI I still donâ�™t feel good I canâ�™t eat even though I have been having all these weird cravings.â�

â�œAre you pregnant?â�

That hadnâ�™t even thought about that.

â�œI donâ�™t know.â� I told her.

â�œI think you should take a test and see.â�

â�œYeah.â�

â�œDo you want me to go to the store and get one for you?â�

â�œYeah would you?â�

â�œOf course.â�

When Rianna got back from the store we both went into my bathroom, were I took the test.â�

â�œThis is insane... I canâ�™t beâ�¦. I canâ�™t have a baby.â� I spluttered.

â�œWell I mean it is possible.â� RI said.

â�œWell I mean of course itâ�™s possible but I never thought it would happen to me.â�

RI sighed â�œKate thereâ�™s nothing you can do, are you going to tell Ryan?â�

â�œYeah well I have to, he will find out anyway.â�

â�œYeah I suppose he will.â�

I stood up. â�œWell I better go tell him.â�

â�œAlright.â� RI said.

I walked out into the living room and saw Ryan and Brendon sitting on the couch.

â�œHey.â� I said.

â�œHey.â� Brendon said.

Ryan smiled and got up off the couch and came over me. He wrapped his arms around me.

â�œHey.â� He whispered in my ear.

â�œRyan we really need to talk.â�

He looked at me and then took my hand and walked into the kitchen.

â�œWhatâ�™s wrong?â� Ryan asked.

â�œRyanâ�¦ we areâ�¦ I amâ�¦ I am having a baby.â� I said tripping over my words

â�œWhat?â� he asked.

I looked up to read his face. He looked happy.

â�œAre you serious?â� He asked

I nodded.

He leaned his face down and kissed me.

â�œThatâ�™s amazing.â� He said.

my baby... chapter 1

As I sat there crying I looked up

â�œBrendonâ� I said with a large amount of enthusiasm.

â�œBrendon I have no clue what to do I canâ�™t tell ryan he will never understandâ�.

â�œCalm down Sara I am sure Ryan will understand.â�

I felt so clueless and helpless I leaned in and gave Brendon a hug. Brendon and I had gotten close over the time me and Ryan had been dating I stared at him.

â�œWhat if Ryan doesnâ�™t.â� I lost track of my words behind soft sobs.

Brendon leaned in and kissed my forehead â�œthen I will help you.â�

A huge amount of relief filled me â�œthank you so much Brendon.â�

â�œThanks for what.â� I turned at the sudden and furniture voice ryan I couldnâ�™t even stop myself from running over to him and kissing him. â�œRyan I love you.â�

Ryan looked happily surprised by my reaction towards him.

â�œI love you to Sara I always have.â�

I turned to Brendon he got up. The look in my eyes must have told him something because he sat back down. I really didnâ�™t want to be alone hell Brendon already knew. I had thought this over so many times in my head I wasnâ�™t even sure what to say now. Brendon knew what to do he got up â�œwell I will see you three laterâ�.

Ryan looked at me

â�œWhatâ�¦.â� Ryan smiled. â�œSara why didnâ�™t you tell me.â�

â�œI donâ�™t know Ryan I am still not to sure we are even.â�

He smiled and hugged me in a comforting tone he said â�œSara it doesnâ�™t matter to me I am glad you told me.â� I still wasnâ�™t sure, but me and Ryan we more then happy. We where baby shopping and looking for a nursery set for the baby and we were trying to come up with names. We tried to hide it from the rest of the band only Brendon knew but in a few months I would suspect that the rest of the band would notice. I was about to go into my room when I felt a warm hand on my back it was Brendon.

â�œBrendon.â� I said

He looked at me â�œhow are you doing?â�

â�œGreat!â� I responded and then I yelled to Ryan

â�œIâ�™ll be right backâ� I grabbed my coat and opened the door. Brendon fallowing me â�œBrendon I want to ask you something I want you to be the babyâ�™s godfather.â�

Brendon eyes lit up with excitement â�œreally.â�

â�œYeah I mean your one of our best friends.â�

â�œBut what about â�¦â� I cut him off mid sentence â�œI can get about anything I want Brendon. Spencer doesnâ�™t even know unless Ryan told him.â�

â�œWell I would be glad.â�

I turned Brendon â�œso whatâ�™s up I have noticed you havenâ�™t been at the top of your game lately.â�

I heard his foot steps stop. He sat on the bench so I joined him.

â�œNothings bothering me except I have always wanted children.â�

â�œBrendon I am so sorry this was all an accident.â�

â�œNo Sara I never told anyone my ex. Girlfriend sent me a text a couple of days ago saying I am a dad. Me a dad I feel bad because I see you and Ryan leave and I know you to be going baby shopping and stuff like that. I feel bad because I missed out on that with my daughter.â�

â�œBrendon.â� I said â�œyou didnâ�™t have to hide that.â�

â�œYeah I did for the same you and Ryan is hiding the fact that youâ�™re pregnant Sara.â� â�œBrendonâ� I let him lean on me â�œits okay.â�

We walked home. Ryan stood by the door welcoming he hugged me and kissed my forehead and walked me to the bedroom closed the door behind me. As I felt the warmth settle in on me I felt drowsy and slipped into a peaceful sleep.

we are the dream and you are the dreamer ( 8)

I opened my eyes and stretched out.

â�œGood morning, sleeping beauty.â� Ryan said.

I rolled over to look at him â�œgood morning.â�

â�œHow did you sleep last night?â�

â�œAmazing.â�

There was a knock on the door and Ryan stood up and went to open the door, â�œshhâ�¦ pretend to be asleep he told me.

I closed my eyes once again.

â�œBrendon tries to keep it down.â� Ryan said.

â�œOh sorry, I just had to tell you that me and RI last night.â�

I almost laughed.

â�œHigh five man.â� Ryan said. â�œNow go down stairs and get something to eat I will meet you down there.â�

â�œAlright.â� Brendon said almost too eager to do as Ryan said.

Ryan shut the door and came over and picked me up, â�œyou might want to put some clothes on.â�

I laughed, â�œYeah I think that would be a rather good idea.â�

I grabbed a pair of pants off of Ryan's dresser and pulled them on; I found my bra and also put that back on and threw on a tee shirt of Ryanâ�™s.

â�œYou know what?â� he said.

â�œWhat?â�

â�œI love you.â�

â�œI love you to Ryan.â�

He smiled and kissed me again. He grabbed my hand and pulled me off the bed and yanked me out of the room.

I laughed.

We walked down the stair and into the kitchen; Brendon was sitting at the table bouncing up and down.

He looked so cute and childish; it was hard to believe he was only about a year younger then Ryan.

â�œHey you guys.â� He said when he saw us.

â�œHey Brendon.â� I said.

Ryan leaned over and kissed me.

â�œIâ�™m going to go see in RI is up.â� I stated.

â�œOkay.â� Ryan nodded.

I walked back up the stair and knocked on Brendonâ�™s door.

â�œCome in.â�

I pushed open the door and sat on the bed.

â�œHold on I will be out in a minute.â� She called from the bathroom.

â�œOkay I can wait.â� I said.

< Ryanâ�™s POV>

I watched as she walked back up the stairs and then turned back to Brendon.

â�œYou really love her donâ�™t you?â� He said.

â�œYeah, sheâ�™s the best thing to ever happen to me.â� I said

â�œYeah RI is the best thing for me.â� Brendon said.

â�œI was thinking about asking Kate to marry me.â� I said.

Ryanâ�™s jaw dropped, â�œno kidding.â�

â�œYeah well I mean me and her have been together for 4 and a half years.â�

â�œYeah, I sort of guessed you would end up marrying Kate.â� He laughed.

â�œSo I didnâ�™t ask you how your night was.â� I said.

â�œRyan it was amazing.â� Brendon said jumping up and down again.

â�œWell good for you, I just wanted to tell you that last night you ruined a very amazing moment by knocking on my door.â� I stated.

â�œSorry Ryan.â� He said.

â�œIts okay I forgive you.â�

â�œSo when are you planning on asking her to marry you? â�œHe asked.

I shrugged grabbing a water bottle out of the fridge â�œI donâ�™t know, I havenâ�™t really thought about it.â�

â�œAh.â� He said nodding.

we are the dream and you are the dreamer ( 7 )

* pre warning pg-13 kinnda lolz

He seemed happy by my reaction. â�œI missed you to.â� His arms were around my waist. And he was pulling me closer. He kissed my lips.

I kissed back.

He laughed â�œmaybe you should go out more, if you always come back like this.â�

â�œMaybe.â� I breathed. That kiss had taken me off guard.

He lifted me up and carried me to the bedroom were he dropped me onto the bed.

â�œSo your home, with me, alone. No Brendon or Rianne.â�

â�œAll alone, hmmm... what could we do?â�

He laughed and brought his lips back down on mine. â�œI have an idea!â� he said.

He was on top of me now. Careful with his weight.

I arched my back, a natural reaction.

His hands slid under my shirt.

KNOCK, KNOCK, KNOCK

â�œLeave it to Brendon to ruin everything.â� Ryan said.

â�œYeah, tell him to go away.â� I said.

â�œThat wouldnâ�™t be very nice of me though.â� He said

â�œFine.â�

Brendonâ�™s bedroom door slammed shut and locked. Me and Ryan looked at each other and laughed.

â�œOkay maybe Brendon isnâ�™t here to ruin everything.â� He chuckled, â�œnow where were we?â�

He was back on top of me his hands going under my shirt again; he pulled it over my head. I unbuttoned his shirt. He found the button to my jeans and unbuttoned them to and then he pulled his own jeans off. Then we rolled over so I was on top.

I moaned. His hands rubbed up and down my back. He caught the clasp of my bra and pulled it open. It fell open and then he threw it on the floor.

I gasped again. Then we rolled again then he was on top again. He laughed as I squirmed under him. The nice heat between us felt amazing.

There was a knock on the door.

â�œRyan, Ryan.â�

â�œWHAT BRENDON?â� he said moving to my neck.

â�œI need your help.â� Brendon said.

â�œFine, hold on.â� He yelled back, and then he whispered to me, ill be right back hold on. And next time we will have to make sure thereâ�™s no way we can be interrupted.â�

I wrapped the blanket around myself.

â�œWhat do you need?â� Ryan hissed

â�œWhat do I do now; RI is waiting in my room.â�

â�œHave fun and leave me alone.â� Ryan said.

â�œOh sorry Ryan. Iâ�™m gone.â�

Ryan shut the door and locked it. He crawled into bed with me.

He was on top of me again and I could feel him getting hard against my leg.

He pulled down my panties and threw of his boxers and tossed them onto the floor.

I gasped when I felt him move and then inside of me. My back arched and he moaned.

After it was all over, he laid next to me, â�œthat was amazing.â� He said closing his eyes.

I could tell he was tired mainly because I was to.

I rolled over and laid my head on his chest and listened to him breath.

â�œI love.â� I whispered.

â�œI love you to.â� He said back.

I closed my eyes and smiled.